Limbo land

I'm waiting still.

not sure what for.

A pilgrimage perhaps but not of the Christian sort.

Hiding the past, so I can look to the future.

Hiding myself, no longer.

Last six years I've been in limbo, three more weeks and maybe it will end, maybe not.

Do I neglect past friends?

Do I move on and start fresh being myself?

Will they respect me for who I am?

A year of lies,

a year of 'playing the game'

or has it been 18yrs of playing the game?

... I've been so stupid, Im even Stupider now.